struggles of a body conscious person

i know i gained 2 kilos for the last year. being 4’11 in height, having a 52 kg weight is a critical stage for my BMI. this was worsten when i gained 2 kilos during the school year. now i fall to the overweight category. this is extremely awful and depressing time for me. but i tap my butt off the couch and sit haha searched in the net about this craze known as “thinspo” later i found out that it promotes anorexia and somehow bulimia which i am not in favor.i was once a victim of bulimia and it is really painful for me. so i stop watching thinspo vids. i end up wanting a body in the fitspo which promotes healthy lifestyle thru exercise, proper meal consumption and self acceptance.

as i watch videos and stare at before and after  pictures i realized how much i can help my body. so there you have it, i started running again then waking up early to have my exercise and for my meal. i only consume  1 cup of rice a day that’s for lunch, for breakfast i have oats, tea or coffee and boiled egg. then no dinner or sometimes fruits. 

after 3 weeks i returned to my previous weight which is 52 kgs. and i am trying to set new goals for my body! 🙂 keep on!!